Ahh, wow, lol. Emotional to the max. I am feeling a million times better, for anyone that cares.

I love the song, Amazing by Aerosmith, the one line from that song means a lot to me, “Life's a journey not a destination” but I always think to myself, it is the destinations along they way that make the journey worth the trip.

I use to have a lot of regrets in my life; I use to think a lot about things in my past that I figured I screwed up, or did wrong in some manner and just couldn’t let it go. I regret nothing now, thanks to a special person that crossed my path in my journey threw life. She taught me that once something has been written into the history books, there is nothing you can do to change it, and regret is basically useless. Or if you have a regret, then take action today, to do what you can to change things in the present.

Things change; we all know that, life is random. Life does not follow a set path. I understand people change, thoughts and ideas can vary from one moment to the next. I can accept that, I can handle that.

I think two people can be friends after being intimate with each other, it may be hard at first, and it would take two very special people. But, I believe it can be done, there are lots of factors that can cause a relationship to end, it doesn’t have to be hate or anger or any crap like that, it could be just both parties grew and changed and there relationship that may have once been magical kind of cooled off into a friendship on its own. It happens, at that point, I think the two people could be friends, and what could be better than having a close friend that knows you better then some of your lovers ever will. Support and understanding is what it is all about.

I hope this girl and I can be friends, I hope we have what it takes to make it, and not lose one another totally. I am not sure at the moment, it has been a rough few weeks, and I admit mostly because of me and my difficulty letting go of the intimate part of the relationship.

I understand the relationship had to end, romantically, it was just hard for me to let go of it after 3 years, even though we where just basically friends the last while. We had a talk a couple nights ago that I thought where the first steps to friendship, but I am not sure now, I understand it can’t be easy for her either. We had great times, and now, I personally think we can continue having great times, as friends.

Anyway, the thing is, because of her, I can honestly say I have no regrets. I am glad about everything that happened and hope her and I can work this out.